Last night was beyond difficult. But I got through it.
Today my wife has called me twice. First time wondering what my schedule is for today regarding my son, then wondering if I wanted to meet at my sisters on Sunday and have her mediate a discussion. I told I would, but I would not stay if it became a rant like last night. She said she was sorry for how she said things last night but it was how she felt. Not much more on that call.
Then she called back a little bit ago, asking more about my schedule, and that my son was upset about tonight. I had told him yesterday I would take him to a play at the high school, but we have had 6 inches of snow today and the roads are a mess. And its 15 miles from where I’m staying to my house, my wife did not realize the roads were bad. She also wondered again if I had talked to my sister about getting together. She asked me if I had an agenda for discussion, I said no. I asked her if she did, she said she wanted to discuss living arrangements since she knew I was not comfortable at my mothers. She asked with suspicion why I went out to the car when she got in last night, I told her to help her with her bags. A weird question, I don’t know what she thought I was up to.
I read the MLC link, thanks 4. I know my wife is having problems; it comes down to my ability to endure and my willingness to allow my son to be exposed her psychosis for a long length of time. And Jack, I will try to disregard the time frame, it was rather discouraging looking at potentially years of insanity.
I got a new book; it’s called “Feeling Good”. It’s about how to control your mental outlook with resorting to drugs. It sounded like what I needed. So far I have read 4 chapters; I’m just getting to the point of what to actually do to fix the broken record in the brain. I figure the book can’t hurt.
So that’s where I’m at tonight.
Thanks again guys, I need all the advice I can get at this point.
