Looking Up

[Heywyre]

I know if he really wanted to do it he would - regardless of what access I had to anything. But I still think there is something he is hiding - not necessarily an A - more like money he has spent etc. that he doesn't what me to know about. We can ill afford big expenses and I know for a fact he has spent about $12,000 in the past couple of months. Now, I know a lot of it was on, can you believe this, lottery tickets (he says "a couple of grand") I am thinking a whole heck of a lot more. However, as much as he can be so inconsiderate at times, I really, really doubt he would ever put us in a financial bind. I know we aren't strapped for cash but at the same time, the money he is spending is mine too and that just ticks me off. He also, unilaterally, went out and bought a restored Jeep (to the tune of $12,000 - not the mention about $3,000 worth of work it will needed done to it immediately) and here I am working 5-days a weeks and he works 2-3. What gives? When confronted about it he said, "ya sometimes I don't think" - no friggin kidding?

I just feel like sometimes I am in a world where no one cares what the hell I do, think or otherwise. I'm just here to be the chief cook and bottle washer (ya ya, I know, pity party) but geez, I do have opinions, hopes, dreams, desires etc. etc. too

We have been doing a little of this and that, like we used to (i.e. going for walks) which has been really nice but we have two large guard dogs that H is REALLY close to and we can't really leave them for any length of time and they don't travel well, so we can't take them. So, until they are "gone" we are limited to very short one day trips (but I am working on that one)