Valentines day massacre

[outtaluck]

I feel compelled to speak to you about your money issues....

I have never had money and I have a chosen career field where money isn't ready and available (I am a teacher) but...this quote has always made a lot of sense to me...

there is a gigantic difference in making a lot of money and being rich ~ Marlene Dietrich

Find the ways in which you are wealthy...
I have a wonderful family that has supported me in every healthy decision and loved me through the bad ones.
I have tow amazing little ladskies that driv eme nuts and make me laugh all at the same time.
I found my dream job and have been having a hoot working there.
I remembered all the amazing qualities I possessed, that I forgot about when I was focused on LSS and money issues (becuas ewe had a ton)
Everyday, my confidence is gaining.
I have great shoes!!!
It's almost Spring

I envy you....I've never been about the money either, but its hard not to thing that if I was a better provider this wouldn't be happening. And at least I'd be in a better position to handle it...maybe not eh, then she'd probably try to take it....

Anyway, I don't really like the work I do...but it was convenient and (barely) payed the bills. I've been disconnected from my family, so in a wierd way this has brought a little of that back, and thats a good thing. Trying to think of good things, but if I move out and in with my parents I can't take the things I've been using to distract myself...guitars and such...its like a library over there...and its a tiny apartment...ugh, I can't see it working out....I got to figure something else out.

I do ( or will soon ) have my freedom to do anything I want...thats something I've been latching on to for hope...now, what do I want???