URGH!!! I am sooooooo mad!!! Excuse me if I ramble on, but I need to vent! I 'ts been a while since I posted. Breif recap: married 9yrs, m-37 h-36 3 kids 5,6 & 9yrs. Found out about other OW 9/06. H still lives at home even though in the begining said he was "done" and drafted D papers but never went thru w/ it. I guess his head is so far up his GF as#@$%$ that he can't even remeber to pick up his kids from daycare the ONE time I needed him to b/c i was taken my mother out of town..thank God it's a 24hr one, but still the kids had beeen up all day since 5 in the morning when i had top leave to work before i went out of town. I asked him if he had forgotten and ofcourse he will not admit to that if he did. I tore him another as@# last nite and I haven't let it out like that in such a long time I guess it all just came crumbling down last nite:( Right now I'm in a numb mode, kinda like I don't want to try anymore even though H was doing some progress and I was questioning to myself if he was still seeing her.
I was so mad that H did not call his sister until 7:30 to tell her that LIE- he was just getting off work. H never gets off that late! His sis had to pick them up. So the kids went to bed late and this morning I had a heck of a time trying to wake them up!!
Do they see how this effects their kids? Do they even care? When do they ever get a glimpse of what they r doing?
I am getting really tired of this and I was doing so good, detaching and all so much that H now thinks I am seeing someone too. I am feeling like I just want to be alone now especially since I can't count on him for anything. For the next two weeks I will have to be out of town at least one day of the week and I don't want to have to worry about my whether or not my absent minded H will pick them up! God has given me so much strength and patience,but today I think I am at my all time low..help! The other day when he look at me right in the face and said he did not like me and was waitng for a response and then said " show me your long face", something (God) whispered in my ear as clear as can be- don't worry this is the enemy talking! And I could almost see the Devil in his eyes!!!
