Don't snoop. You deserve more than that for yourself. Give yourself that dignity.
Understand that she is looking for answers in her life that do not come easily, and have been her secret fears for most of her life. She can no longer deny these fears, mortality. "What about me? What about my life?"
You are not the answer. You can not be. You must let her go so she can seek her answers. She may not find them. She may be gone.
You must begin your own journey. Seek your answers. "What about me?" Besides your W, what was important in your life before? Family. Friends. Spirituality. Hobbies. Health. These should all become your focus. She will tell you what you need to know, but she will likely lie so don't hang on every word. Her lies are her confusion, her acting out against the unfairness she thinks life has put upon her. History will suddenly be rewritten to support her need for a new independent life.
When she runs for President with all the others, you can vote for her. Other than that there is little you can do for her. You can do much for yourself. You can do much for others. You can do much for the world.
You may not have a great deal of cash today. You can smile at people and watch them smile back. You can begin making the world a better place with a smile.
