Journey of a Happy Heart 2

[COG]

Nic,

I do not want to be paying for little trips with ow, thanks.

Right you are!

I have been thinking long and hard about my sitch. I think, honestly, that my H has some very, very serious problems.

Right again!

However, instead of actually doing something about it, he [me here] treated me with disdain, disgust and disrespect. And now he wonders why I have low self-esteem, why I feel at times like I'll never meet anyone to love me.

I'm not sure you can blame HIM for that Nic. Maybe you allowed him to treat you that way when you should not have. Maybe that's a weakness to be aware of, you allow others to treat you badly. We all have that weakness though, especially when trying to keep our families together.

You know, this whole ow thing hurts so much this time b/c I really fear that it was all about me after all.

Be realistic when you look at yourself. Accept responsibility for YOUR shortcomings, but also realize that OTHER people can be much weaker that you.

Things were really going well btw us,and then he had to meet her. F*CK that pisses me off.

I hear ya. That makes me angry too. But if it was'nt this OW, it would have been another. He's just not the man you thought he might be. End of story. That's not to say that he still might change, but believe it when you see it.

You are an awesome lady, please don't beat yourself up anymore. Let go, realize just what a beauty you are, and accept life as it comes. It's all going to be alright.

God Bless,

COG