kITANA, Kind of weird to say welcome here, but welcome and sorry to see you in this situation. There is ALWAYS hope! I think you need to put your sitch(situation) in the NEWCOMERS place where more people frequent and the "sages" pop in from time to time. I am not one of them but do care...
You will also want to put more of a history so we all can try to help with your situation..
Always believe and even in the 11th hour miracles happen..peace
