You know, it's NOT you. He's not suddenly satisfied in his new R, no matter how much he tells you. And I suspect that what he told you about being messed up inside is true. Just that you see through it and this new woman does not. And when she does, he feels crap about himself again, he will run to someone else for the next showing of "Mr. Messed Up."
Is there something wrong with us for loving them? Hmmm, I don't know. I still try to sort that out. I too met many great men, think I'm a great catch, but it never stuck and I was always in love with H. So, something wrong with ME?? Maybe in that dept....
But, you said a lot of things in this post that I think are telling and are way ahead of some of us still "standing"....that you are no longer in love with H, and he was treating you poorly for a long time and it affected you badly. This is big. This should be the ground you stand on for your decision. And, your kids will respect that.
You are not bad for feeling these things. You are being true to yourself, you are wanting to find happiness and wholeness again. That is not wrong. You are going about this with much thought to the possible negative impact, and not destroying everyone in the path. So, you are being normal.
We love you. We support you. We want you, your H and your kids to be happy....even if that means not all together.
