Starting to really piece it back together

[Heartbroken]

The exteme bouts of sadness have come back too - this part sucks!
I will just get really sad thinking this is not how I pictured my dream life. The marriage is no longer sacred and needs to be rebuilt and I get sooooo tired of thinking about all this. It's like thinking to breathe - the whole marrige thing was just natural and now it seems so forced. I feel soooo tired...