Hey girlfriend. You sound better today. It'll come and go. Just keep treating yourself well.
I know you miss him. It sux.
He's not himself right now - and I can guarantee that he's not having a party either. He's self medicating with crutches like ow, but this would not be an easy time for him.
The thing that always spun me out about separating was that one minute you have this person who is the first person you talk to if anything happens and vice-versa, but all of a sudden, he's not there for you and you can't be there for him. It absolutely did my head in for quite some time.
I'm pleased that you are going to the business function - your plan is a GAL and a 180 all in one. You are going without making an issue of it to H (great 180) and you'll get to see colleagues and friends (perfect for GAL).
I totally get that you are stressed about the weekend travel arrangements. Don't stress about it. You know he has it in his diary. He's a big boy and they are his parents. You might just have to let him manage this one. He's making his own rules at the moment and letting him deal with this one might help him to understand what "not being married (to you)" might mean for him.
I can understand the sensitivity around telling/not telling friends and family what's going on with you guys - but IF he does, you will be OK. It won't be the end of the world. You may even find a new level of support from friends and family.
Good luck at the counsellor tomorrow. I'm still here rooting for you.
I'm Australian, so I tend to post when I'm finishing up at work at the end of my day, which I think is quite late the night before where you are - so our timing is out of whack ... whatever.
Take care, talk tomorrow
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
