Thanks for the support, guys. I will probably have to write my marathon post (like ALL of mine aren't marathon posts... LOL) later tonight - trying to get some much-behind work done today... ;\)

Just a couple of quick things for now...

1.) Lin, I'm so sorry to hear that you're having a hard day. I wanted to respond to you and give you some encouragement, but I can't find your thread... Do you have one? And, Lin, thank you for being with me through this - your support and well-thoughtout and said advice has meant more to me that I can say.

2.) 1210, thanks for your ongoing support and "tough love." I value your opinions so much, and your encouragement and support mean the world to me. Thank you for believing in me.

3.) I called the therapist back, as I was so out of it this morning that I forgot to ask her Michele's suggested questions when looking for a therapist. She passed the tests! She does want to dealve into childhood things, if necessary, which is okay, but I did tell her that right now the most important thing to me is dealing with this current crisis, and she agreed.

4.) Haven't seen H yet today, and I'm doing okay! (not perfect - still have pings in my stomach, but am doing much better). H called several hours ago to give me some work updates. Then he came to the office, where I am. He did not come up to say hi and I did not go down to say hi. He was here for probably 3 hours or so and just left again without saying goodbye - AND I'm doing okay! I know, small baby step, but work with me here! \:\) Yes, my heart is hurting still for the lack of communication - even as "friends," but for now, I'll just look at is as my new me is just too intimidating for him to handle... Ha! LOL - in my dreams... Whatever it takes to work myself through this, right? \:\)

5.) H slept at the office last night! \:\) Don't know what this means, if anything, and I know I'm not supposed to care, but just an update. At least he's not spending every single night with OW. I hope that is a good sign. But, he's not home either, so I hope he's not trying to figure out how to tell me it's over... Can't go there - must think positive... Not spending night with OW = good!

6.) Still have not done anything about parents trip - scheduled to leave on Friday night. Called the airlines last night to ask about rules for cancelling/changing tickets so that I have that information. Thought I would work on doing something about this with H today, but now that I have appointment for tomorrow, will talk with her tomorrow and see what she says. H's parents have not called me yet, which seems odd... Could mean they just are waiting until closer to time to call or could mean H has already talked to them and hasn't told me, which I doubt. I just hope H hasn't told them what is going on with us, as that would absolutely kill me right now. I don't want anyone to know... I don't think he would do that, but he has done stranger things, right? ;\) Anyway, will keep you posted on this. I am still planning on going to Vegas the end of the month by myself and am looking forward to it!

Well, that's it for the short updates for now. Will check back in later and will work towards writing my marathon epiphany post later tonight.

He's not here, and I'm okay... He's not here, and I'm okay... Breathe... Breathe... I'M GOING TO DO THIS!!!!