Hope you can find a way to connect with your wife and don't allow an emotionally abusive childhood destroy the possibility of a great future.
It can't destroy anything. Only I can do that or refuse to do that.
It doesn't matter whether my mom expresses remorse or whether she still talks to me or whether she behaves any differently or even whether she actually did anything wrong or not. What matters are the bad habits I practiced (based on my own perceptions at the time of what was going on) and continue to carry to this day. Why couldn't I let go of my fears the day I turned 18? At any rate, it's high time I did... it's getting in the way of everything I want and need to do with my life.
I did stop talking to other women a good while back... and got hooked on the Internet instead. Still looking for people to give me attention while staying a safe distance away, and neglecting the people that really want and need me to be close to them. And neglecting a lot of other things too, always feeling nervous when I take any tangible action or have a conversation.
Anyway, back to the topic... affairs (emotional and physical) are a way to get attention from other people who don't actually know you well enough to judge you, and a way to hide and withdraw from people who do know you well enough to judge you.
Last edited by Crazy Eddie; 03/14/0707:23 PM.
a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.
