Puffy making love to another women, and hanging out with her kids, when me and his kids are crying and we miss him so much.
Lissie,
I know exactly how you are feeling, it flat out sucks. I have felt the same thing but recently I realised one thing, and W pretty much confirmed it in a way tonight.
She had called to talk with the kids and when she was waiting for them she mentioned being exhausted. I asked her if the time change had gotten to her and she said " no, I just can't sleep at all, I am up all night, and my dreams interupt the rest." I said the tried and true " I'm sorry to hear that"
This little statement gave me one mother of a lightbulb moment.
I know she is in pain, I can see it all over her. I did think though that what was said here about them not really having the time of thier lives was BS. I thought she was living large and having nothing but fun.
You and I know what it's like not to sleep don't we lissie, we know exhaustion, we live it.
I know I am not having much fun at all with my GAL because I am tired, hell I could go to bed now and it's early.
My lightbulb tells me they ain't having much fun at all, tired, cranky, "Ow/OM I'm not in the mood, I am tired, have a headache etc." I think this is more of a reality than what we LBS think is happening.
Lissie, I want you to do somthing just for me OK
Repeat this for me often...........
Puffy does not ML with OW, they have sex.
You are and will be the only one Puffy has ML to.
You are a pillar of strength and the OW is definatly not. This makes you the attractive one and it takes time for puffy to see the attraction.
It is so hard, so hard. But I would echo what lawless says. They are troubled souls. Re: kids, as I'm now in NC with W this week I have only talked to D about W when she's brought her up. I think that's helped both of us to have a bit of space from the sitch.
dont let your thoughts go there because they will eat you up. you can never be replaced. you are the mother of his children you are his wife and right now he is very sick.just pray and dont let your thoughts take control.
I am >>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<< with you on this one. The thought of this as a possibility can make you bonkers and then when it is confirmed??? Well, then all of this has made me physically ill at times. Especially since his mother said that he has started sleeping out... Anyways, so that I can get down the rest of my coffee and not puke, just wanted you to know that I understand as do others here.
Try not to think about it. I have tried to focus on my kids and finding a hobby for myself and going out with friends. Been thinking of yoga ... should be interesting for a bootylicious girl like me...See I made you laugh! But I am bootylicious.
So, what are you doing for you? No more tears-bleh.
Billy , Bleh! I don't want him doing that either. I just put it in my head that it is an EA and not a PA ( i know, I know) But it makes me feel better.
Patty, Pilar is my cuban grandmother.
I held my babies last night and we prayed. My Son said Dear God, teach me how not to be scared anymore.
And my D said Dear God, can you make it summer already, I don't want to wear socks anymore.
They are the best kids on earth, I mean besides all the kids here.
Ever, bootylishes huh? yeah, it's a latin thing.
But, that is why i can't do yoga, the um, ladies get in the way
Puffy called last night, and I answered and said Hi, the kids are sleeping already. He said already> I said yes, the time change, has them tired, they wake up earlier.
He said Oh, I think S called me and I was still at work, and Just now, I was able to call back, I was working with XXXX, an old boss of his that i know.
He is doing an intership at another place, I hope he leaves his current job, where the whore works. bleh. And that job he is at now, makes him sooo stressed out. I will never foget in DEC 05 Puffy told me that his job, told him ,that he is at the highest position that he will ever be in. That night I saw Puffy sitting on the corner of out kitchen crying. I just held him .
Anway, he asked how the kids were, and I told him about our son, and how he cries so much, ( Should I be telling him this?)
He said ok, I will talk to him, I said Ok. Bye.
I just wish i could scream at him and say
WHY DON'T YOU SEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok let me calm down.
I have sooooooooooo much work to do today, b/c I took off thursday and Friday to be with the GERLZ.
So have a great day peeps.
“Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”
he knows believe me when i tell you this.he knows exactly what he is doing but he is like a runaway train and he cant stop it right now not yet but he will.
Question......how many times do you have to be turned down after inviting should you finally stop? Especially when it hurts you everytime they say "no, I don't think it would be a good idea as it might give false impressions"
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