I can totally relate with you. My family just told my daughter and she told me that I am a sick person for taking my H back and I should seek some help. (isn't that nice). It is so easy to judge from a distance when they cannot and will not ever know how I feel. My parents do EVEYTHING together, are rarely apart. I would like to see if either of them could handle what I have been through the past few years. They are not forgiving at all.
I do feel that I am in idiot also sometimes, too. I know we should not have to put up with what we ahve and there would be someone out there that would treat us better, but I am not ready to throw in the towel just yet. It is my families life!