Tam, I haven't been in a good place the past few days but I do know that DBing has made me a stronger, fuller person than I was before the "bomb". I have a whole list of GAL activities I have accomplished. It's really helped me be proud of me. If W wants a part of it, she's welcome to it but if not, I am still someone who has turned this Hell into a decent place to be. YOU CAN TO! Be good to you Tam, you sound like an incredible woman with alot going for you, now prove it to yourself. It might even win your M back too