my wife is amazing, and she loves me with all of her being.anyone who has put up with this crisis and lets their spouse come home afterwards deserves sainthood. i never stopped loving her i just forgot that i did.
My son! He is the apple of my eye. He used to smile all the time, he was always so fun, and bright, and now. Well, he cries alot.
Today he told me that his heart beats so fast, when he thinks about puffy not being here.
I hug him so hard, and tell him he is a Gift from God, I told him I am sorry you are hurt buddy. We pray every night.
We pray that Puffy wakes up.
I look at my babies, and I hurt b/c
A. I hate Puffy for doing this. B. He must really be sick to do this. I mean He was such a noble, moral man. NOw he is a cheater and a liar, and a sneak.
Puffy making love to another women, and hanging out with her kids, when me and his kids are crying and we miss him so much.
It does not make sense. I want to hold Puffy, and tell him it is ok, you are going to be ok. Let me in, Please let me in.
Another day, of detaching, and a new day to detach is around the corner.
I'll just keep praying for us, for all of us.
luv you guys
goodnight
“Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”
If you have a spare minute or hour or two, would mind reading about my situation. I am really finding it hard to imagine H ever coming back. I love him and want nothing more but am having a hard time believing he has any feelings for me at all.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
I haven't been able to post much to you because this really hits home with me. I was doing really well and H and I were getting along pretty well for a R with an alien and then WHAM!! I found out about OW, a so called friend of mine. I reacted much the same way you did.
It took me a lot longer to recoup than you but you are a very strong gal and have lots of support from both family and friends. You are a great person and an even better mother. I know that someday J is going to reappear where Puffy is now and you will be the victor.
Who is Pilar?? Is she someone on this BB?
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Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
