Mark, I know where you are coming from. I get up tight about everything I see as a mistake too. We shouldn't do that to ourselves. I think you are being punished. She still loves you, I remember how she was when she left, that doesn't just vanish into thin air. She is hurting you because she felt hurt by you for not taking her anger, you stood up to her and now she is going to make you pay. Don't help her by beating yourself up too. I'm not sure what to say. If you take your licks like a good boy,(like I do), she will eventually calm down, but she will be in control. I would consult al-anon info, maybe one of the coaches here. Part of the thing of it is when they come close, our anger starts to come to the surface. Be kind to yourself Mark, you need to right now. I'll check in later, 4
