You want your wife to be truly happy. You know, deep in your heart, she'll only acoomplish that with you.
If she walks away permanently she'll be broken in a deep, unspeakable way. You will also be broken, but you will know *true* happiness because your mind, heart and actions are in alignment with the Great Romancer of our Souls -- God Almighty.
Bravo.
On the subject of acting vs. reacting...
Dude, what's your passion in life? What do you really want to do, aside from saving you marriage?
Tomorrow I'm going to visit a Karate class with a friend. Hard core, kick-ass, traditional, wear your heart on your sleeve Karate. Take no prisoners, one-punch-kill Karate. I think that'll help me open my heart. At least get some stress out.
