Well I have locked up a thread; I guess that's a badge of honor.
Today I'm back in the pit of depression. I am not detached at all. I called the W with two questions, she called back and answered the questions and then said they did not warrant a call. Basically I should not have called.
I've been close to getting my wife back and I blew it. I can not seem to do it all right. 30 seconds of screwing up on the phone then taking the phones off the hook (because I let myself get angry) and the W is back to being pissed as hell. She was so close before she left and now sh#t, sh#t, SH#T! What a moron!
I have not been able to dig myself out today. I know detach, go to the gym, etc. It's gotten difficult. I have let so much roll off my back, so much hate and anger. And I say to my wife, "You are going to do what you are going to do, I don't control you." And then get irritated and take the phones off the hook from 10 pm until 9 am and I'm back to being the AntiChrist to her. This isn't fair, is it?
Mark….. A whining dumb@ss
Me 45 Wife 50 Autistic Son 11 Married 22 years Bomb 20 December 2006 Moved out 21 December 2006 Wife Said She Does Not Want Divorce 11 February 2007 Back out of the house 23 February 2007
