I am always telling my best friend that I have such mixed feelings... I know I deserve affection and to be happy but I do not like asking for it all the time, I mean I am ok with talking about his/my needs and desires but not beggin for it. Make sense? I am a pleaser, I would do anything he ask, maybe that is partly why I get so frustrated, I want him to do the same for me plus I dont ask for much!!
I know I let him off the hook, in a way... I know that may not end up good because I am kind of frustrated that by me doing that it makes it all go away for him and he doesnt have to talk about it now. But... I am willing to be the one to make the first step in trying to do something "different" (like the book says). I want him to own up and take part in the changes but I just can't keep bringing things up, I am tired of hearing myself talk!!
Things are good right now, I will keep on being positive and not needy. He woke me up yesterday morning... if you know what I mean!!! That hasnt happened in a very long time!! Woowee!!! I know he has to think about my feelings, he knows that my heart is in it!!
