If I ruled the world...

[Valentine]

Journaling:

Well, well, well, Mr. Nasty has come bacK!

LL kept calling yesterday...he was in mediation and wanted it to be over. So he calls me around 7, asking if he settled his case, would I be up to having a celebratory drink with him? I was really surprised by this but said yes. SO, I start talking with Lissett and Jeanette and lo and behold---LL calls to say he settled his case and wanted to meet me at a bar. So we decide on the bar and Lissett and Jeanette were giving me sh*t for running off to meet him.

So, I go and he is already waiting...we have a couple of drinks and are talking about this and that...and he says that he has to "save the world", says he has always been like that...so I say, don't worry about saving me, I can do that for myself. He then starts trash talking my family saying they don't give a damn about me..and I counter with, well, there are people we know who say you don't give a damn about ME, they are amazed that I have stuck it out this long with you, and they tell me to dump your a** and move on. He gets a little riled up says that well he's heard the same thing, that Vali doesn't deserve him, blah,blah, blah.

I said, why are we even talking about this??? So I wanna move on 'cause we are only getting upset by it and he says you're the one who started to talk about it. And I just kept quiet and then I started picking up my purse as this unpleasant turn of conversation was my cue to get the hell outta there. So he walks me to my car...I get in and he leans in and kisses me, I DO NOT kiss him back. He has this evil smile on his face like he likes that he upset me. It was creepy.

Anyway, I think I am just not gonna talk to him. I think he does this to me on purpose. I think he likes to treat me like a rag doll that he can just throw around. He likes to have control and I don't like to be controlled (like most normal people).

I was very concerned about his statement: You know me, Vali, I have to save the world....everyone.

WTF?????

And that, folks, is the crux of his problem. BLEH.