When the contact starts again, it throws you for a loop. You are back where you were several months ago when you stopped contact. You are deciding on one level to actually go backward in this process.
They can't hurt you or not as badly when you have no contact.
You are leaving the Fortress of Solitude, and allowing yourself the possiblity of being hurt again, by this person who has demonstrated that they can hurt hurt you.
It is easier to stay in no contact, but that isn't why you are here.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK