thanks you all for your thoughts and encouragement. i just dont know if i have it in me to keep fighting this battle when he seems like he could not care less. there were alot of baby steps in the beginning, but they have all but stopped. I will however take your advice and stop giving all my energy to this. after all of this i do know i do not need him any my life will go on if he leaves again. i have no control over his actions. it is my birthday on sunday and my 25th wedding anniversary on the 17th. he has made no plans and i dont think i will either. peace and contentment within myself are going to be my new game plan. he can stay or go at this point. i will deal with what i have too. thanks again.
