here goes...H left in june 2001. told me via text message. did not hear from him unless it was financial or kid related for months. then lawyer calls to tell me h filed. never once did I get an explanation. life went on. I bought a house for myself and sons and was going forward. Feb 2002 H leaves me a note while picking up his remaining things before I move stating the reason he left is because he has been unfaithful 3 x's during our 24 year marriage. (one with my best friend at the time and 2 with co-workers)we talk, he cannot explain but is sorry. see each other over the weekend during baseball game for son and then he comes to me to say the latest affair has lasted since he moved out and he has actually been living with her and her son for months. he states he wants our marriage to work out and moves out of her home and into mine. during next 2-3 months he waffles back and forth saying he can't let her go. Finally does so, quits his job and returns to school. he seems to be happy but I am not. I have tried so hard to be supportive of his return to school and patient with his getting over "OW". He however continues to withhold intimacy and affection saying it may take years to get those feelings back for me. He blames his cheating on my weight. I am overweight and have always been so, but now more so than ever (50 lbs). I go to the gym and I try but this situation with my H leaves such a hole inside of me that I find I try and fill it with food. I dont think I can take much more of this. This is ruining the holidays and our sons who have just gotton used to H being home know something is up. Why did he come back if he didnt want to be with me? Please let me know what you think and if you have any suggestions as to how to handle this before I just end it for good this time. My heart cant take much more.
