He said he's seeing someone new

[Ophelia]

Hi pheonix. I'll pop over and read your thread. Thanks for stopping by.

I finally got a reply to that email. Hadn't gotten one by Monday morning, so I forwarded it on to his work email instead, and I got a reply. Just a very brief one. "Sure, here's the address". I've since emailed him to ask him a follow up question, but no reply to that one. I emailed one of our other friends who is in the same group of people, and who also has their flagpoles stored with mine, because I just wanted to keep her updated. She replied and said that she didn't know if H had told me, but apparently both he and this friend of ours had discussed this very topic with the people who arrange it at the end of last season, and everything had been sorted out then. Nice of H to let me know that when he replied to my email. *rolls eyes*

The letter to his L saying that I'm willing to agree to the terms of the property settlement was posted last night. I don't want to have to agree to it, but I don't see any way to stall it, so I'm pretty much stuck.

Tomorrow night is the football game that H and my brother are playing in. I'm still deciding whether or not I'm gonna go. Who knows how H will react to seeing me. Who knows how everyone else (I know several people on the team) will react to seeing me. If it goes horribly, then H will probably rant about it to some of his other friends, who I'll be seeing at the football, (professional football that is...different to the football H and my brother play) on Friday night at the first game of the season. So if H bitches about me to them then that won't make the football on Friday night all that fun.

Anyway, the way I see it is if he really believes that he's totally over me and isn't doing anything wrong with OW, then technically it shouldn't make him uncomfortable to see me, right? And if it does, then maybe it might make him think about some stuff. Of course, he's probably likely to be in more of a, "WTF does that bitch think she's doing, showing up unexpectedly like that?" state of mind as opposed to a, "That was just really weird seeing her again," state of mind, but it's not like I can control what he thinks or does, right? That's all down to him.

And the possibility of OW being there has also popped into my mind, but I figure the chances of that are slim, seeing as how my brother will be there, so I doubt she will be, but even if she is, well she shouldn't have any problem with seeing me there if she doesn't believe she's doing anything wrong by sleeping with my H, and I'm fully prepared to ignore her completely on the off chance that she's there.

One of the major reasons I want to go is to show him that I'm not just crumbled up in a sobbing heap, pining away for him every second of the day. I'm sure that's what he thinks of me right now, and I guess I can't really blame him, seeing as how the last time he heard from me I was all freaked out and bawling my eyes out over him and OW. But if I can go along to the football and keep my composure, smile, and stand my ground, then at least he'll see me in a different, slightly stronger light than he's imagined me in over the past several months. Whatever he does or doesn't do with that new image of me is up to him, but at least he won't be able to avoid seeing it.

My only real challenge will be not to say something sarcastic or nasty if one friend in particular tries to bait me into it. The same guy who tried to bait my brother into saying something nasty with the constant, "Why haven't you been coming along?" a few weeks ago.

Maybe it'll all go horribly, but then again, maybe it won't. And honestly, I would really like to be there to watch my brother play if they make the grand final, because he's been mentioning for a couple of weeks now how cool it'll be if they finally make it to the grand final this year after bombing out every year before. He's been rather excited about it, so I'd like to be there to show my support if it happens.

In totally unrelated but totally cool news, I had a brilliant win on ebay the other day! I'm such a dork, but it really makes my day if I win an ebay auction. It was for three seedlings of this rare bromeliad, (pretty much the only plants I can manage not to kill), and it was just my luck that no one else put a bid on, so I won for an awesome, bargain price. I actually did a little happy dance when I won. Like I said, they're only seedlings right now, but when they grow up, they're gonna look like THIS when they're in flower. Pretty impressive, no? I'm keeping one for myself and giving the others to MIL and a friend of hers, (they both have extensive bromeliad collections).

GAH, I've gone and done it again...another novel length post. Making up for the few days when I didn't post anything, I suppose.