Dear God, NM. If you were reading this on another person's thread, you would feel utter shock that someone is putting themselves AND THEIR CHILDREN in harm's way. Over and over. I am really concerned by you still being in this situation.
Even if no one is physically abused, yet, the interaction and environment the children are witnessing just breaks my heart for what they will take away from this time of uncertainty and scariness.
Please listen to Ellie, she is so wise and thought out. You must get the F out of there. This man no longer warrants priority over your children. I'm sorry.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3