Hey Ellie,

Thanks for asking. The spiteful, vindictive fool deleted my email account last week and I hadn't been able to get on.

He took me going to court pretty nastily, as I thought he would. Was very petty & spiteful. Then the constant calls from OW began. Yesterday alone, there were 19 calls from her. If she got the answering machine, she'd just hang up and call back. She did leave a couple of nasty messages - makes me upset because the kids hear this stuff.

Anway - last week, I was an emotional wreck. By Thursday, he was just being completely impossible to deal with, although it didn't reach the level of Mondays argument. Friday, he had a session with the psychiatrist and he told me "It went badly." He did say the doctor upped his Lexapro dosage.

He also brought home a certified check for several thousand dollars. He had transferred the money out of the account designated for "me" last week when he got served the papers. I said to him that didn't make sense. If he wanted me out so bad, why take the money away? Friday, when he handed me the check, I said I would leave. I packed up some of the kids clothes and headed away - not knowing if I would come back or not, but I had to get out and be away from him for awhile to be able to make some decisions.

Upon clearer thinking, I decided it would be best if I came back. Mostly because I haven't talked to my lawyer yet. I am not going to be forced into making a stupid decision that could cost me in the long run. (Plus I have kids in school). I gave the check to his mother, asking her to hold it for now.

She had told him, as well as me, that me & the girls can come live with her for a while. Now that he knows that, every day he tells me to get out and go live with her. It may be what I end up doing becuase this is just becoming too crazy to live in. But I'm not doing anything until I talk to the lawyer. Just quietly documenting everything.

And even through this, he insists I sleep with him. Not sexually, although THAT too has been an issue. Even last night - came to my room, woke me up and begged me to either let him sleep in there or me go to his room. I was furious. I asked him why he kept doing that. He makes no sense whatsoever. Mixed messages. Makes things very confusing and difficult for me. \:\(