Okay, I'm feeling somewhat better today. My poor husband went through his own hell. He dealt with it in his own way. There are moments when I can accept that and it looks like this is one of them . . . I like those moments!
Today is going to be hard, the cancer screening is at 11:00 this morning, then we have our first marriage counseling appointment at 7:00 tonight. I'm not sure which one I'm more worried about. We tried a counselor in August, but it was a fiasco. I think this time we're going to make it clear from the start that we're not interested in pointing fingers or re-hashing the ugly things, we're just there to learn how to move FORWARD.
I look back and I get so confused over how, when and why it all happened, but I need to remember that he's confused over the same things. He's really not sure how, when or why it happened, either. Maybe this counselor can help us both put the monsters away for good.
We have so many great things planned for the future . . . we have "Date Night" every Saturday night, we have a "grown-ups only" getaway planned for one weekend a month, we have a family vacation planned in June, we have lots of great things to look forward to, all I have to do is turn my head around and look that way.
H-44 M-36 Married 6/7/03 8/17/06 - H not sure he wants to be married any more 8/17/06-present - Just crawling through the rubble that's left of my life 2/8/07 - H admitted affair
