I'm sorry for being defensive in my last post to you. I reacted in my own way of dealing with conflict. Running away.
Whatever I see in others, I realize it is also a part of me. The anger I was sensing, maybe was my own. If I am way off base in what I have said to you, then let it go. if there is anything that resinates within you, than take it for what ever it's worth.
There have been different opinions posted about our dialogue and I'm sure there will be more to come. We all have opinions from our own way of processing information through our filters. Each of us have had different life experiences and therefor have different perceptions of what we are seeing or hearing.
So who's right? I don't know. I'm sure I will continue to have more questions than I will ever have answers. There are times when I thought I was right about something, only to be proven wrong at a later date. Isn't it great being human.
For me, I have come to realize that the problems in my life were self created. I have made choices, and then I had to deal with the consequences. Good or bad, I have had to learn that things don't happen to me without me playing some role in there occurence.
It is my belief that things that are happening in our life are taking place on a spiritual level as much or more than the physical level. Someday's I feel as if I understand life and relationships. Other day's I feel as if I don't have a clue.
Today is one of those day's I'm not sure what I know.
I said things in my posts because it was what I felt from my senses and own life experiences. It was harsh. That is why I asked for permission to share my thoughts first. Maybe if you had a heads up on what I was going to say you might of passed on hearing it. My intentions were not to upset you.
But we can't go back. I do want you to know that I care about you and wish you well. It is not my desire to cause you any further pain than what you have already experienced.