Looking Up

[Heywyre]

Well, here I am still (I haven't left the planet) but I have been feeling rather down lately and just not up to posting much

I have been GAL, doing extremely well on not snooping, trying to keep light about things etc. etc. etc.

So, tell me then, why do I feel like crap?

I know one of the biggest problems I have right now is with the trust issue - how do I get past that? After all the times I have heard "I won't do it again" before and it still did happened again didn't it? As much as it was extremely painful I got past it (for the most part) the first time but this is so much worse, and harder to do.

How do you know when you won't ever be able to trust that person again?

And, how do I get through to H to let him know that I am not over it (like he thinks I should be by now) - he says he is past it and when he thinks about OW there is no emotion

I need some help - please someone out there????