I wasn't angry, I haven't been angry, nor have I held anger in my heart while typing any of these posts. The anger felt is not mine.
For those who are concerned about D, I have set up an appointment for tomorrow with her counselor. After talking with her teachers, we all confirmed and agreed that this trip is not in her best interest as they have been kind enough to help me find a few ways to go about this. I talked with 7 teachers, the school counselor, the principal and superintendant, and suprisingly in my real life I found 11 people to agree.... I thought I was having a pretty positive day.
Has anyone noticed I haven't tried to change S's plans.... he wants to go, he is comfortable with the thoughts of going, I have concerns, however, I am leaving it up to him.... while preparing to deal with what comes next, when he comes back.
I am doing the same for my daughter, as she has chosen not to go, I am trying to protect her right to choose. She is 14 not 4, she doesn't have the bond with xh, she doesn't do well with her father nor his wife, as there are 11 people who agree with me, not that I need them to agree, but it was nice to hear.
In the months to come, their roles may reverse, and at that time, I will take a different stance, IF NECESSARY.
As for xh, he is responsible for the relationship with his children, he is responsible for his own actions. He chose to show up an hour late last night, which I of course had a civilian escort to witness his late arrival and noncompliance to the court ruling. Different? Yes, because he had called to ask if I would change the drop off to the farm, and when I didn't not answer my phone, he began to leave his angry, threatening diatribe on my voicemail..... which I saved. Normally, I would have allowed him to drop the kids off at the farm, but they are the ones that wrote the rules in the first place, and yes, I didn't allow the changes he wanted after all was said and done.
Now again, in my real life, things are looking up, I am feeling pretty dang good about myself, then to come home to this, it seems kinda weird.
Yes, after court, my inital response was anger, but hours later, I realized the intelligence of the court ruling, and understood this is where I am supposed to be, I am on the right track. It may not be the right one for everyone, but it is where I am supposed to be.
Thank you all for your opinions, thoughts, and support.
Take care of you, God Bless
Love,
Laughing
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
