Hey there...it is hard - very hard, especially when we're stuck with just "pieces" of the puzzle and not the whole picture...and deciding to move on IS a choice - it's a daily choice.
But you know.....(I told hubs this on Friday also) we went to see a MC on Thursday - out of our 50 minutes with her - she only focused on the "A" for 2 of those minutes - why? Because it was a symptom of our problems, not the problem itself - why yes, it's a VERY big problem to me, but once I put it into that perspecitive, it was easier to swallow. I still have thoughts and I've even started making up my own dumb answers for them (benefiting me of course)...but sooner or later you just have to choose....
I HATE that this happened, I HATE that he betrayed me, I HATE that he lied to me...but we are finally in a place that we would have never been had we not been brought down far enough to start again...