update: This weekend I asked my H how much effort he feels he's putting into the mariage and how much he wants us to work. To both, he replied, " One hundred percent." For me, the next step in the growth process is to have some faith in him and to take a step back. I am not going to keep up with my own thread, as I tend to overanalyze and pick things apart too much. I'll post when I really have some major conflict. But it's not going to stop me from picking apart everyone else's situations, so beware!