I think this is where I belong

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You will be fine, and you will survive. A lot of people go through this, and probably worse. I don't think most of those learn from the experience and are able to turn it into a positive. You are doing that. You'll survive and be stronger and better than before.

I can understand your decision to have no contact. Even though my W's A seems to be over, so my sitch is not as bad as yours, I still often think it would be easier if we had no contact. In your sitch, I think I would do the same as you. I can imagine that there is relief based on your decision. I imagine you'll derive strength from it too.

My guess is that there will still be those moments of panic and pain. My hope and believe is that they will be further apart and less intense.

Wishing a good day and week to you.

Cinders - what's the NC-zone? No Contact? good luck to you. The sun is shining here, and it looks like Spring is coming on strong. Hope the sun is shining where you are too.