I am feeling beautiful today. I am feeling voluptuos. I am feeling like it is good to live. Come what may God always has a plan~ I am better Human Being now~ I have learned so much~ Life is so full of surprises~
It is only a short time ( @ 6 weeks ? ) until May 1st.... The day I recieved the bomb last year. I was thinking about it last week and the week before and hey I am only human . But today I have come to the realization, That it will be ok. Yes that day will come and maybe I wil shed a few tears like I am right now . Bitter sweet tears of sadness passed. But I am going to be ok. I am getting stronger everyday and fear can not hold me down anymore. I am sooooooooooooooooooo tired of living in Fear and just holding my breath and waiting for it to be ok and for the fear to pass. I am going to go thru the Fear and not be afraid. As long as I do my best it wil be ok.. come what may. I have been thru so much amd loooking back I sometimes dunno how I even got out of bed. but~ I did and everyday God gave me the strength to get stronger and love me a little more everyday too. And be a Mother to my 5 children. I thank him for that I also thank myself for not giving up. Hey I am not a size 2, I am not perfect, I fall down and flat on my face too. But I get on my knees sobbing and in pain and I PRAY. I get up and I try even harder. For I have only been given one life and it is a good one even with all the dark chapters. And I am good and I have worth and I am beautiful. God does not make JUNK. I am me. I am just Ali~ A Woman who has integrity and never gave up, even when It would have been easier to do so.I have been to hell and it is not a nice place,, it is far eaiser to work on me and rejoice in this life God has given me! God bless this day and many to come....
