Regarding the babysitting comment. My H made a similiar comment to me not too long ago to the effect that I had his "ball$ in a vice grip", whoa! Your H is probably feeling the same way. You need to start trusting him. Let him go, wish him well and tell him you will miss him, then get all negative thoughts out of your head. Remember, fear and worry make us weak. Weakness makes us look needy, desparate and unattractive. You are not weak Aud! You Rock!!