Now Surviving Separation

[Heartbroken]

Well time for the update..

H told the Ow buh bye (yeah I know it's again for the third time) but it was on his terms this time and he says it's different this time. Funny, last night when he called to give me the news he said he was surprised I wasn't 'estatic' - I said I was more like numb, scared he will waffle once again and just being cautious with my heart. We will see how this one plays out. He says he wants some alone time but that we can continue with the family meals and doing stuff as a family. We have this apt lease for six months and they have a pool so come June we should be able to go swimming nightly!

I am just here not knowing what I should feel - again it seems surreal in that it only took him 2 weeks to figure her out? I know he was listening to me the week before he left. I had 30-40 mins tops where he did not shut down and heard what I was saying about her and other guys and her lies. I think he really sees her for the person she is - but it's that and the combination of his kids pulling away, him being out of his home that he built and I being the loving supportive wife who gave him his freedom...

I guess I am getting this DB'ing since I still feel detached and cautious - I told him we still have far to go and he knows that. Baby steps but at least he has picked a direction... Hopefully he can stay the course...

Thanks for all your support. I truly believe the apt is what helped us the most that and their fantasy bubble burst with the realities of daily living... Not so fun and secretive in the harsh sunlight!!!