So, H woke up and went in to his office and worked for a while, and now he's gone! Not even ONE word to me while he was here, and obviously no "goodbye."
PLEASE help me to understand why he does this! I know it shouldn't matter to me and that I'm being silly, but even if we're "just friends" for the time being, why can't he at least be kind enough to come in to my office for a few brief moments just to say "hello" or anything for that matter? I don't know why it hurts so much, but it just kills me inside...
When he was here at the office, even though I knew he was working in his office, I felt a huge weight lifted off my chest. I felt more focused on the work I'm trying to accomplish and just felt better overall. Now that he's gone, my heart is just aching... He obviously just has too much control over my happiness still... I just feel a huge sense of loss when he leaves. Even if we're not talking, at least I know I'm close to him in the same office.
Why does this bother me so much, and why does he keep doing this? HELP!!!
Good thing is that I did NOT initiate any contact with him either, which I know is good. I guess maybe that's why it hurts so much - I kept my distance hoping he would approach me, even if just for a second, and he didn't.
