I saw my H today for the first time since he left 30 days ago. I was nervous all morning. Once he finally arrived he gave me a big hug and we sat in our living room chatting. We did not talk about us just talked about stuff with mutual friends, family and I smiled and giggled a bit. He was over to help with a few household issues (lawn, sprinkers, dog run, etc.) I didn't follow him around but was always available if he needed anything. At one point he retreated to our bedroom and laid down on our bed then called for me. I walked in and was a bit shocked and he could tell so he asked "is it ok?" I said sure and then sat next to him and read for a bit, He napped for about 20 minutes and then started talking again. We were so close but never touched. face to face, I smiled and it felt so nice. After some more small talk he asked if "we could cuddle?" I scooted into the spooning position and he held me so tight. I said nothing and just enjoyed the moment. That lasted for about 10 minutes and then he whispered in my ear "thank you for not making this wierd" all I said was "you're welcome" and then he squeezed me tight and we were off to mow the lawn. For the first time in our relationship, I helped. I caught him staring at me and just smiled. It felt like he really enjoyed my company. I had a apt and had to leave before he was done, but I made sure to call him an hour later and thank him again for the help. He sounded happy to hear from me. What gives? He felt so lonely and sad. Am I crazy???
