Did you ask Jody about the trip???....I really really really think it would be a bad idea for you to go...a great time to show a 180 and some strength to him....I decided not to go, give your parents my best, if you don't go please let them know as I am pretty busy with ________ and might forget to call and let them know...
Sounds like you are doing much better...I think for you sleep is something you need to focus on...not sure what the sleep meds are that you are taking...some can have rebound effects after stopping...so be careful....I used valium or a muscle relaxer and would make sure I got in bed at a good hour...did some light reading or funny tv watching...then off to sleep...I did 6 months of about 4 hours sleep a night...then finally it hit me like a brick wall...I needed good sleep and a lot of it....
The "honey" comment...my H made those...good not to call attention to it...and your right...his heart doesn't hate you....and he doesn't hate YOU...he is just waiting for the REAL YOU to come back....he is doing it in a very screwy way with OW...but then MLC is screwy...big time...
Take care and get some good sleep....keep up the bug watching...he can be fun...I used to lay on the walk and watch ants, lol...people probably thought I was nuts...but the warm cement was comforting and the ants were entertaining...I would even put a crumb for them...or a drop of water...just to watch what they would do...ok, don't think I am nuts...I did this to KEEP MY SANITY!!!
