Still Having a Nervous Breakdown

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Hi All!!

Your advice always gives me the strength I need to stick to this especially when I feel like giving up!!

Today is one of those days!!!

H came into town this am even though he knows the girls have plans tonite (sleepovers w/ friends), he wants to spend the day with them and part of tomorrow.

It is obvious to me that the reason he is coming into town after all of his antics last week is b/c of the alleged O/W! Of course I do not know this for a fact but I am not an idiot.

So, I looked so good (if I do say so myself) when he picked the girls up this am and he did not even look at me! This is the first time that he has not even tried to hug me, he completely ignored me! I said have a good time today w/daddy and I will see you back here later.

I had a DB coach session this am to help me prepare for seeing him today and she said to be happy and like all is ok. I have a better chance of making him notice that then crying and being a bitch. Well, I was so good at it today and I will do the same when he drops them off, but whats with his attitude??

BTW, he looked like HELL!! The worst I have ever seen him, he flew in this am but his clothes were all wrinkled, his hair was a mess and he looked like he hadn't slept in a month. This could be b/c he was out of town in training all week, but I have never seen him look like this. I am still in shock that he didn't even acknowledge me. He is probaly still upset about court but like I said in my earlier posts he brought this all on himself.

When he drops them off later I will be dressed up to go out w/ friends tonite, HOPEFULLY he will be wondering what I am doing.

I feel like we have hit rock bottom with all of this he is not budging at all and our permanent court date is approaching.

I forgot to mention that his mom was with him this am and she was ACTING as happy as she could, like all is wonderful and NO way could her son have possibly been the one to ruin our lives!!

And shocker they were going to go spend more money on the girls today and tomorrow b/c that is the only way they have ever been able to show love.

Why can't these idiots realize all the girls want is their love and attention not constant unneeded gifts?? They just want their Daddy home!!

Please tell me what to do and WTH is up with his behavior???

J