Thank you for your reply. Yes the OM is one of those fun, flirty, and very charming guys that you want to hang out with and be friends with. We are a lot alike that way. That was part of the reason why we kind of clicked and I considered giving a relationship with him a chance. I don't sleep around. I had only been with my husband before the OM so even for me to to develop strong feelings for someone else was a huge step for me to take. But when the person who's supposed to be your friend and the one who's "helping" you get thru a rough time starts telling you he's interested in you and paying you the attention he was paying me ... well I found it irrisitable. I'm ashamed that I was so weak. I never thought I would ever even think of another man in that way. When it felt like my marriage was really on shaky ground and every time I spoke to my husband it ended in a fight the OM was a total 180 from that. I should have ran for my life! But I was stupid and believed the lies he fed me. That's what is so twisted in my mind. How could I fall for someone who turned out to not even be the person I thought he was? And I'd known him for a few years by that point. I just felt so used by him. It still makes me angry. Angry at him. Angry at myself.
Bad part is that for a long time I tried to forgive him and move on. I couldn't. I kept getting sucked back into his web. He got to the point where he would only call me when his wife wasn't around. I told him I didn't want to be friends with him like that. That's still sooo shady. UGH! I just can't believe that this is where my life is. I feel like such a failure and a screw up!!!!
Sorry that was a long reply. I'm just so torn up over waiting to hear what my husband's brother and sis in law are going to decide. I didn't even sleep last night cause I couldn't stop thinking about the situation.
