H in QLC?

[MonicaP]

Stilltryin...IMI,

Thank you again for checking in on me, it feels good to know there are people like you out there ready to offer support, and hope.

H came back from his trip on Monday and came on Wednesday to see S4. I'm sure he had to see Ow first. In fact, I have been a little suspicious of whether he went back home or not. The main reason is that he said he was bringing S4 some toys from his grandma, but only brought over obviously locally bought items. I emailed his mom w/ some pic's of S4 and brought up the fact that it must have been nice to see H. She responded but didn't mention H at all. I don't know, maybe something was lost in translation.

Anyway, I haven't seen any change in him since he returned. One odd thing was his response when I asked if his family was doing alright - he said, "it would seem so, but it would require more investigation". So weird! He's always so cryptic.

Anyway, S4 has been sick the past 2 days and I've been at home with him. I'm exhausted, but proud of myself for being a good mom.

A guy I know who brings his kids to the same park I go to w/ S4 and whom I worked with years ago - asked me if I'd like to go for coffee sometime. He is going through marital problems as well and I guess we have that in common. We both understand -we're friends only. It would be nice to have a little male perspective and companionship. Nothing more.

My heart is still w/ H in many ways, it's hard to just close that door. He was my "one true love" (ha!) and the father of my child. I can hardly imagine being with anyone else, but I've got to be open to meeting people.

As you can see, I don't post as often. But it's still wonderful to receive feedback, I really appreciate it.

I'm exhausted now...I'll write again soon.