You guys are so awesome. THANK YOU for hanging in there with me. I know I seem like I'm not listening to your advice right now, but please know that that is not the case. I AM listening; I'm just having a really hard time implementing it. I hope you can look back to the dark days when you were at where Penny and I are at and remember how hard it is to find strength and to always do the right things. I'm not perfect, and it's really hard to just go cold turkey and do everything right all of the time. I know I've been working on this for a while, but this latest bombshell that happened since we got back from our trip is still very fresh on my mind and threw me into a tailspin again. I just need some time to gather myself again. I know I can do this, so please don't lose faith in me!
1210, thank you for telling me like it is and making me see from the outside how H is looking at all of this. I hope you'll keep belieivng in me. I hope you and XH have a wonderful time in KeyWest this weekend. Be sure and let us know how it went!
Lin, thank you for being here for me. You have helped me so much with your candid yet caring words. I hope you'll stick by my side...
Penny, thanks for your inspiring words about the coaching and also your suggestions about letting things go to God, etc. Again, you are so strong to be reaching out to me when you are having such a hard time yourself. THANK YOU!
I am looking forward to my coaching in the morning and will let you know how it goes. I will ask her what she thinks about individual counseling for me as well. I hope you can at least see that I WANT to do the right thing. I just need strength, courage, and support... I hope you'll all stand by my side... DON'T GIVE UP ON ME!
