I just want him to come back home so very bad so that we can work on this again. I know I need to change a lot of things about me first....
NO YOU DON'T....you saw what happened the last time he came home and you went on vacation...it all fell apart because 1) he wasn't ready and 2) VERY IMPORTANT...YOU weren't ready either....
You can't fix what is wrong in you with him...and vice versa...
PLEASE reconsider parents trip...I do think...know I KNOW this a big mistake...it is too soon...you are likely just to push him over the edge...I don't care what he says....if you bow out with best regards to parents you look like a winner...if you ask...and you want to go with him...you look pathetic and weak which is what he is trying to avoid right now...
As for mentioning the "pizza moment"....HUGE NO NO...you can not be talking to him about these things...this again makes you look clingy, needy, and pathetic....NOT WHAT YOU WANT...you don't want him to feel sorry for you....you WANT HIM TO LOVE YOU!!!!
1210...help me out here....am I all wet or do you see some HUGE DANGER flags going off!!!!
I can't stress this enough...BACK OFF!!!!!!
Yes, so far things haven't exploded...and you keep pushing the envelope....you have me worried now....I won't be able to support you and make you feel better if you actually go too far and loose him like this....no one will...you will be so devesated for not listening I am not sure even Xanax will work....
I know I came so very close to doing just what you are....and my H has told me that if I wouldn't have stopped when I did...and if I wouldn't have put the focus on making my own personal changes and taking control of my own life...he wouldn't be any where near here now....
And remember just 9 days ago I heard my first "I love you" in 2 1/2 years!!!!
YOU WANT THAT!!!!....PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....THINK THINK THINK!!!
