Of all the stuff going on, that's really breaks my heart. We had put off children until we got a house. Right now, we should be trying to start a family and not getting divorced.

On one hand, I'm glad that we're not going through this with children. But it breaks my heart when she tells me to get on with my life, marry again and start a family.

Sigh... at least I have my niece and soon another niece/nephew on the way this summer.

Sorry about bringing down the mood, I just needed to get that out.


"I made the wall of shadow draw back,
beyond desire and act, I walked on.

Oh flesh, my own flesh, woman whom I loved and lost,
I summon you in the moist hour, I raise my song to you."