This thread should be locking up soon and I think that's fine, time for a new chapter....doing MUCH better, hopefully on my way out of the dark hole I was in ! There have been so many of you that have filled my heart with warmth and hope and faith and I will trust what you say, I will pray to God to stay with us on this one.........with all of us !
I guess having been with one person for 17 years was a small miracle in itself, and even if it doens't happen again, I will always have those wonderful years, 3 beautiful kids and fantastic memories to look back on !!!! Nothing is lost because I treasure it all in my heart !!! Every moment, every step, every argument, every smile, everything - it's worth the world to me ! And I thank God that he let me have it for as long as I did .....
Off to work on myself, to improve myself, to enjoy myself, to better myself !! Off to love and cuddle and cherish our children ! 3 other miracles that God sent me !!!
I say goodbye to the past but keep it treasured in my heart, I welcome the present, and look forward to the future.......step by step !! We only get one chance at this and I am determined to make the most of it !
Thank you everybody for your kind and loving words ! Thank you for having become such good and close friends to me in such a short time....thank you all for just being you....THANK YOU !
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Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Ugh. I just read that email that BND's H sent her....and it sounds SO familiar.
And, it's just what I needed to hear today.
I just had a COLD, ANGRY call with H, where he refused to speak to me, wants D, and thinks I do not hear the "truth" in his statements. So awful, but so very familiar.
Oh Always you have allready dealt with so much - I'm sorry....take my hand we'll skip a while....who knows it might bounce us right back where we were !!! In steady-land !!! hahhaha
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Feeling really down today, not my usual pick up quickly self.
BUT...BND, I REALLY needed to read your threads. If for nothing else but to read the familiar spew. The bouncing back and forth from guilt to righteous anger (WTF??)
MLC BS is what it is. I spent all last night taking everything so seriously. I have to get better at that. Not take it seriously.
My Tuesday call is another story and who knows if it will actually happen or what version of the alien I will get. I am so tired that I will just be kind, validating, and not say anything else.
