A million thanks to you my dear as usual~ I feel fantastic too. This is real wonderful. And the sun is shining here ! we do not get much of that around here in the Winter. He most likely will be the same old H. And thats ok. I feel so good and I just want to be able to keep being like this even when he is present,, alot of the time I try to hide who I am and think that he needs me to be subdued all the time. I do not think I want to be that Wife anymore,,, I am still going to be a lady. But I would like for him to see the fun side of me to. I understand what you mean though,, alot of the time even in my deep depression and anxiety, I would get upbeat and he would want to be boring. I am not expecting anything but I gues i do expect him to be Happier and thanks for gently reminding me it is better not to have expectations. I will remember this like everything else you told me and keep it close to my heart. I think that I am trying to do that alot more cause him not saying ILY often sometimes hurts but then when he does say it it feels so special. If only this piecing stuff were EASY!!!!!! It is harder for me than hitting the Gym actually it takes alot of work to grow and to break old habits~ SHEESH~ ( wiping sweat off my brow ) You mean alot to me and I hope you have a great weekend. I feel like if I work hard and he joins me we have the ability to have the best M we can have and if we both work together we can do this. I know we can and I hope he wants to.. he says he has always wanted to make this better.. so we will see.
Whether or not he wants to grow he will have to follow me some and little by little I will get him to. I pray ~
I have just cleaned my whole house and my daughter has a play date today and I am a bit nervous about it but much less than I would have been in the past. I also will be coloring my friends hair today, she called and asked me if I would and I said sure. I met her 11 years ago when I went to Cosmetology ( Beauty ) School.
Off to clean some more and do Taxes FUN~ God bless...
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