Should I even be here?

[BeingMe]

Hi Ron! You sound so positive in your last post. That's so great! NJ could turn out to be a great adventure! And, as you say, another city in CO is always an option, when you go back. I visited CO once, and I really liked the look of Boulder. When is the great move then? Will your sons be able to finish their schooling year before the move?

Wouldn't it be great if your D19 decided to finish her studies in NJ! But, if she decides not to do so, then just realise that she is an adult now, and must walk her own path. I am certainly getting that lesson in my own life right now, with my S/D19. D19 is still in the old city with the idiot bf, and S19 is home, but gets so annoyed when one wants to talk for him (i.e. the guitar teacher to find out about lessons - he said that he can do it himself). I had to snicker under my breath at how emphatic he was, but then got a little sad that I only have one kid left to get to adulthood. I am just thankful that he has decided to go to college .... yay! Fortunately, I have a lot in my own life, so don't have a need to live through my children.

Triple B's, 'eh! Well, we women love brains and brawn, and bucks don't hurt. However, don't forget the triple H's .... humour, honesty, and humbleness (which should not be confused with lack of confidence). I think you've got your b's and h's in a row though (if your posts are anything to go by), so you will do well on the dating scene I think.

I understand what you mean about blaming everything on OM ... I still have slight feelings about that toward my H's XOW, after 2 years. I think I have moved past resenting her, or despising her, but I do keep an eye on her whereabouts, because I am wary. There are times still, that I wonder if I did the right thing staying with H, but the choice is made, and I must honour it, but that doesn't mean I am going to be stupid on not being aware of things. Last time I checked, her H is being sued in the UK for sexual misconduct with some of his patients. I couldn't help but feel a little sorry for her. Only a little though because if she decides to contact my H again, she could play the pity card, and my H is a sucker for sob stories.

Hey, take care, and have fun on your dates!