I am feeling alot of energy today.. Yesterday I was alot slow and I felt tired. Before I went to bed I took my Lexapro like usual it make me real drowsy. I tried to read 5LL again and I got thru one page barely when my head hit the pillow I must have feel asleep~ I feel so rested today. I love it. For awhile now I had these real bad circles under my eyes and they have all but dissappeared. I cant give all the credit to my wonderful sleep though. I am also eating even healthier than I used to. I also am taking Omega 3 and I guess it helps with so much in your body. Do not know the specifics anymore but I know it does wonders~ I feel very proud of me for doing this for me and for finally "giving " in and taking something to help with my anxiety and depression. I feel so centered , sure there are times when I feel not so great but I get thru them so much better and I do not dwell on them. I hope when hubby gets here I can contiunue to feel this good and just be myself around him. I love him very much and want so much for this to be good... I want our R to get even better and be based on a MUTUAL respect for one another and for him to treat me like I deserve.For him to see the real me and see that I am beautiful and whole and for him to embrace me and grow with me and move forward. I want to be able to be sexy, sensual, hot, loving, caring , funny and a goofball and a dork and silly sometimes too~! Being a Proper Lady all the time does get boring you know.Sometimes it is fun to dance around like noone is watching when I am wearing my Ipod... but I think it would be great if I could do this in front of him and not act like I am shy~ Well I guess I am not acting I am shy but I am growing and that needs to change some. I need to be more free and be myself and just jump in the water ~ Not sit by the edge and say " oh no !!!!! it is too cold can't jump in today maybe tommorow. "
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO tired of doing that. ..... time to breathe in the air, jump up and down, scream ... LIVE~ God bless....
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